The Sweet Life

Do you ever find that you probably make too much of things or over-analyze the way people act or the things they say?  I do that a lot.  It's been a problem my whole life.  In fact, for a lot of years I had myself convinced that all of my extended family didn't care for me.  Every time they talked to me I told myself it was because we were family and they felt obligated.  Family gatherings were miserable.  It was a sad way to live my life.  Especially now that I realize how much I missed out on by having that belief. 

I continue to fight those thoughts with everyone I meet.  Whenever I'm around people I'm telling myself they don't like me.  When they don't invite me to their dinner party, I tell myself it's because they don't care about me.  When I read on a blog that someone had a fun time with their best friends, I get all sad that I don't have friends like that.  And then I have to remind myself that I DO have good friends...they just live no-where near me.  That's sad on a whole different level.

Let me get to my point though.  I'm trying not to let myself spend this summer sitting around feeling sorry for myself.  It's lame and it doesn't help anyone.  That might have been okay if it only affected me but I have a son now and he needs me to be at my best.  So I need to know...what can I do to push through the idea that no one likes me?  How can I push past the thoughts in my head that tell me I shouldn't try to make friends in my ward because they all think I'm dumb and weird and they don't want to be friends with me?

This summer has a lot of potential and I want to make the most of it!

P.S. My brother is now a married man!  It's pretty exciting.  Enjoy these awesome pictures from his wedding day.